celebrity suffering and experience

I’m not sure if this is the time, place,
or even the right time or circumstance
But I certainly feel controlled by the exhaustion
And that’s the restriction I certainly do not need
Not when the headaches seen more tolerable
than whatever desire this life has for me to suffer

maybe the frank feelings I have to give up
is an indictaion of where not to go
but I can’t forget the times
I need to dwell on it being such a struggle

perhaps life is meant as an experience –
wasn’t that what I learned on that frigid night –
but it meant to tax me more often than not —
only my heroes know.
May be not even them.