cleansing

many nights
I will endure the cleansing
I use this handmade soap efficiently
Only ever washing away the surface grime
Never removing the source of the dirt I wear underneath

I have a tendency
To overlook the positive days
When no washing is necessary
To Aid in my sparkle
Instead I get out that soap
and rinse all shimmer out of my system

Not sure if it changes me
Unaware of its ultimate direction
Not willing to take in the communal baths
of pouring their grief over my wounds
I think I have the soluble source
Just need to keep scrubbing deeper.