harder part about being alone

the harder part about being alone
is not being in a corner.
it’s that behind you,
the thrusts of wind are all that
the wall entails.
the cliff hangs sharp under your feet,
with an edge so razor-like as
to let you know,
this is what is keeping you from falling.

the harder part about being alone
is not being filled with solitude.
it’s that in front of you,
the raring dream scape that otherwise
plays out in mainstream horror films
that reality demonstrates
can’t be turned off.

the harder part about being alone
is not the fear of indifference.
it’s that inside you,
the knowledge of the overwhelming
burden that your mind
has been graced with to solve
all that danger confronting
your survival.

the hardest part about being alone
is knowing that
reliance is only on your self.