resolution

And so I rest
Not gaining skills
Not gaining friendships
Not gaining more than monetary support

But that monetary support lends itself
To gaining skills
To gaining friendships
To sustaining skills
to sustaining friendships

Lends itself to supporting my independence
Lends itself to supporting my materialism
Lets me live freedom
Lets me survive hostility
Lets me wallow in my self-pity
Lets me rationalize the pathetic attempt I made
To get out
To move out
To branch off
To learn
To experience more of life.

Still, I can’t be happier.