under the influence

I feel more alive and inspired now
in the moment
than sobriety has ever graced me with the knowledge
of its arrival.

scary thought
to become one
who thrives
artificially.

I always thought I’d be the one
who nourishes this world
with the pains-taking approach
of hard work and labour of the mind.

I just never knew
it wouldn’t feel welcome
while not self-induced
with influence.